it's been 8 years since i joined NG and began posting little songs i make for fun. Just 8 years ago i was composing in general midi, and putting those midis through soundfont patchers, and over time i began experimenting with VSTs and the like. But now I can only wonder... am I really all that good? I have to say, I had extremely little experience in composing back in 2010, and while my production value may have slightly improved since then, I can't help but feel I haven't grown as a composer. I have experimented a ton with different music styles and genres, never stopping the learning process, but all in all I feel like I haven't really done anything beyond the level of "just another wannabe composer." Not only that, but there are always people out there that have way more talent and criminally, get a lot less recognition. The world is unfair in ways such as that. I've had some thoughts about just quitting all together, but in truth I have fun doing what I do. I want to be great someday, something really special, and I'll continue working towards that goal, despite my doubts. My friends support me, and opportunities continue to come my way, even though I sometimes feel I deserve them less than others. I'm gonna keep fighting the good fight for as long as I can.